Ok, I have a confession to make, Sis. I loooove me some reality-tv. I've been hooked since The Real World, but this woman right here is one of the greatest to ever do it, in my opinion. Nene Leakes is the epitome of petty entertainment and her shade is unparalleled! Now I'm sure we've all heard the gif phrase, but just in case, let me give a tiny bit of history (even though it has NOTHING to do with the main point of this blog post lol). This scene is from the Season 6 reunion of The Real Housewives of Atlanta. Nene was engaged in a full-blown argument with her favorite lady to hate, Kandi Burruss. She had made some offensive comments about Kandi's beloved Mama Joyce, and as Kandi expressed how much those statements bothered her Nene yells "I said what I said!". Now, I am not here to debate whether she was wrong or not - not my business, but this expression has become one of the greatest lines in black culture; and I, for one, am thankful for it!
So anyway girl, the other day I was returning home from a weekend in the mountains with my family; and let me just say it was MUCH needed. I took hella pictures to share with you. Here's one. See? She cute and she ready, ain't she?
Anyway, it was a great time that I hated to see come to an end. I left feeling refreshed and ready to tackle a few things I've been putting off, but the more I pondered on these things the more I began to feel scared about them. I don't know if it was the fact that it was pouring rain or not but just as quickly as I had felt relief, that despicable best friend of mine showed up ready to remind that she's always near and waiting to take over. Meet Sis. Anxiety.
Now, let me remind you (and myself, again) that when I started The Comma Life in 2018, I was literally doing what I wholeheartedly believe that God showed me. There's a scripture in the Bible that says that we overcome the plans of the enemy by the blood of Jesus (that was already shed for us, if, of course, we believe) and the word of our testimony. While I am not a "bible thumper" by any stretch of the imagination, I am a huge fan of this scripture. It is the perfect explanation of why TCL had to happen: it's my testimony of how I overcame and will continue to overcome, through sharing my story-the the good, the bad, and the disgusting parts of it.
Why then would I ever be anxious about being obedient? Why would fear ever have the power to silence me away from purpose? Chile, I don't even know nor do I care, but what I can tell you is this. As I continued pushing down the highway in that ridiculous rainstorm, tussling with my BFF aka Sis. Anxiety and my thoughts, I spotted a rainbow. I had never seen that before. I usually see the rainbow AFTER the storm, and even in the bible, Noah and his family saw the rainbow after the flood. Here I was seeing an entire rainbow, as it still rained. I won't lie, it was such a beautiful sight that I couldn't wait to take a quick pic (see below...I did my best, Chile). It was at this moment that I knew that God was checking my anxious, doubtful self - with the NeNe neck roll and all!
See, He's already given me my marching orders and even though I have from time to time experienced a storm here and a storm there, His instructions and the promises attached to fulfilling the mandate have never changed. Losing my job didn't change anything. Losing my home and everything in it didn't change anything. Losing the one relationship that I thought would be forever didn't change anything. Losing every bit of comfort that I had grown accustomed to didn't change anything. And see, that's the thing because He's so faithful to us, we can trust His every word. His promise STILL stands, Sis...and just like Linnethia Monique Leakes, "He said what He said!" So what are we really waiting for??? His plans for us have not changed, even in the midst of a few battles and a few war wounds. That's the main point of this post, boo. So let's just get going and KEEP GOING...we won't regret it! #stepforwardbravely
"Don't fret or worry. Instead of worrying, pray. Let petitions and praises shape your worries into prayers, letting God know your concerns. Before you know it, a sense of God's wholeness, everything coming together for our good, will come and settle you down. It's wonderful what happens when Christ displaces worry at the center of your life." - Philippians 4:6-7 MSG